Experiencing Downtown Houston

After me and 'J' left from the Desteni America meeting, we decided to go to downtown Houston. My goal was to go back to Dallas in four and a half hours. It was already approximately 8:00 PM in the evening time. Our expected arrival time to Dallas was at 1-2:00 AM. Instead, 'J' suggested that we stay in Houston. I didn't want to because the primary point that came up was, "What if...", "What if...", "What if...". So within that, I didn't allow myself to look at the point and consider it. I was actually conforming to my 'linearity' that I 'hold' onto -- not allowing myself to relinquish my subtle fears and anxieties about staying in Houston. The reason that I held onto the subtle fears and anxieties is because I didn't know anyone from that part of Houston. I structured my whole integrity around family, money, my apartment, my belongings, etc. Thus, without any of that, I perceived that there was nothing to 'hold' onto.

So that night, we got a hotel, and left in the afternoon the following day to go back to Dallas. I could say that I am 'happy' that I stayed in Houston because I faced that point of wanting to 'hold' on to my possessions, and my memories associated with Dallas.

Points I Saw Within This:

• Fear of Death of the Identity of Me because of my familial structure
  
• Fear of Death of the Identity of Me because of my financial position
  
• Fear of Death of the Identity of Me because of where I stay
  
• Fear of Death of the Identity of Me because of my belongings / possessions
  
• Fear of the 'Unknown'

Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'fear' the death of the identity of me because of my familial structure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me based on my family.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'fear' the death of the identity of me because of my 'financial position'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me based on how much money I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'fear' the death of the identity of me because of where I 'stay'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me based on where I live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'fear' the death of the identity of me because of my belongings / possessions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'fear' the Unknown.

Self-Corrective Statements:

I am not defined by my family.

I am not defined by my financial position.

I am not defined by where I stay.

I am not defined by my belongings / possessions.

I am not defined by 'who I am', thus, I do not 'fear' the unknown.

I am not defined by 'time', thus, I do not 'fear' the unknown.

Self-Corrective Application:

Go to places that I am not familiar with and 'embrace' the moment rather than 'fearing' the moment because of my identifications within my mind of who I am in relation to my memories.