After me and 'J' left from the Desteni America meeting, we decided to go to downtown Houston. My goal was to go back to Dallas in four and a half hours. It was already approximately 8:00 PM in the evening time. Our expected arrival time to Dallas was at 1-2:00 AM. Instead, 'J' suggested that we stay in Houston. I didn't want to because the primary point that came up was, "What if...", "What if...", "What if...". So within that, I didn't allow myself to look at the point and consider it. I was actually conforming to my 'linearity' that I 'hold' onto -- not allowing myself to relinquish my subtle fears and anxieties about staying in Houston. The reason that I held onto the subtle fears and anxieties is because I didn't know anyone from that part of Houston. I structured my whole integrity around family, money, my apartment, my belongings, etc. Thus, without any of that, I perceived that there was nothing to 'hold' onto.
So that night, we got a hotel, and left in the afternoon the following day to go back to Dallas. I could say that I am 'happy' that I stayed in Houston because I faced that point of wanting to 'hold' on to my possessions, and my memories associated with Dallas.
So that night, we got a hotel, and left in the afternoon the following day to go back to Dallas. I could say that I am 'happy' that I stayed in Houston because I faced that point of wanting to 'hold' on to my possessions, and my memories associated with Dallas.
Points I Saw Within This:
- Fear of Death of the Identity of Me because of my familial structure
- Fear of Death of the Identity of Me because of my financial position
- Fear of Death of the Identity of Me because of where I stay
- Fear of Death of the Identity of Me because of my belongings / possessions
- Fear of the 'Unknown'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'fear' the death of the identity of me because of my familial structure.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me based on my family.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'fear' the death of the identity of me because of my 'financial position'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me based on how much money I have.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'fear' the death of the identity of me because of where I 'stay'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me based on where I live.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'fear' the death of the identity of me because of my belongings / possessions.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'fear' the Unknown.
Self-Corrective Statements:
I am not defined by my family.
I am not defined by my financial position.
I am not defined by where I stay.
I am not defined by my belongings / possessions.
I am not defined by 'who I am', thus, I do not 'fear' the unknown.
I am not defined by 'time', thus, I do not 'fear' the unknown.
Self-Corrective Application:
Go to places that I am not familiar with and 'embrace' the moment rather than 'fearing' the moment because of my identifications within my mind of who I am in relation to my memories.
cool points! thanks for sharing!
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