I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within relationships of and as culture of which I believe is a collective expression of life, and thus, to define me as a cultural being wherein I am able to express who I am in relation to the picture that represents me as a black male, and thus, specialize my race because of the culture that defines my race as -- as an agreement by and from the forefathers that represent me because I couldn't represent myself equal to and one as all life, but had to specialize myself in relation to my picture-representation and the picture-representations of others that form the integrity of our culture as the collection of agreements made -- as the way that we eat, the way that we wear clothing, the way that we speak, the way that we have sex, the way that we move etc. -- justifying 'personality' and relationships as valid -- instead of realizing that I am not defined by and as the past -- as the ancestors / forefathers that represented who we are, but created myself to be the image and likeness of the past, and formed an identity with the past because I never considered myself 'here', but instead -- accepted myself as a particle of and as 'energy' that gives life to the past.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to let go of who I am as a 'personality' indigenous to the programs that are the building blocks of and as the past as my forefathers that came and created the signature of who we are as particles of abuse of which is used within and as culture as the image that represents who we are in relation to our culture as the wholeness of our expression as mind systems within this world -- that gives life to the thoughts, feelings, emotions, perceptions, ideas, and beliefs that we made real through our participation with others as relationships that we have subjugated ourselves to -- which are the patterns as 'energy' that are the symbols of our deception -- instead of realizing that the particles of the past is that which I use to sabotage myself in every moment as everything that I do and say are symbols of my culture of that which I have not directed within and as my life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire another culture because I see that other culture as 'more-than' me because I have given value to my culture as 'less-than' -- creating a polarity friction that I live within and as my life as the particle of deception that I have made real because I defined myself within and as my culture as incomplete, and thus need another culture to represent who I am as a 'personality' -- being complete wherein I am able to 'energize' my mind with more symbols that represents the picture-representations of another culture within food, fabric, language, sex, movements, etc. -- becoming enslaved by the very resonances of culture of which I, within desiring another based on their culture -- sabotage myself in and as my process of stopping all energy as the building block of culture -- instead of realizing that I am not energy, but am life as who I am of which I made energy 'life' because I have given life to relationships that I have separated myself from.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have sex with another being from another culture based on the belief that sex is life because I have separated myself from life, and placed life within and as a picture-form that represents a particular culture that I defined as 'more-than' based on comparison, judgment, and jealousy of which I use to justify who I am as a 'personality' because I entrusted who I am as the 'personality' based on the creation of relationships that I use to define who I am in relation to others -- instead of making the commitment to stop all points of comparisons, judgments -- of which become jealous, and use that jealousy to make myself 'less-than', so I can obtain more 'energy' from the very justifications that I have created within judgment as the integrity of my thoughts, feelings, emotions, perceptions, ideas, beliefs, and memories that I made real. Thus, through sex, make all of these real because I projected myself onto another in a picture form, and use that person as a point of blame for not standing up for and as who I am as 'life'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project blame onto another through desiring them, and thus, exist within the thoughts of have sex with them as a point of justifying that blame -- because I have accepted and allowed myself to not take self-responsibility for stopping 'energy' of that which I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become based on the belief that one culture is 'more-than' me because I have given power to a picture that represents my past -- forming relationships with the structure of a picture in relation to the structure of nature, and so within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from nature -- to believe that nature is what gives me life as substance -- instead of realizing life is who I am and that I, as substance, is not subject to nature, but that I see nature as more-than me because I see me within and as the mind subject to nature because nature gives life to me as a physical body and mind, thus compare nature with a physical body's form, shape, and color that fits the picture-representation of nature that creates the desire for sex with that picture-representation that I connected as the representation as the nectar of life that give me life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the color 'brown' to and as the nectar of life as a physical body that represents brown, and thus, exist within the desire for sex with a person that represents brown for the acquisition of the nectar of life as substance of that which I have separated myself from. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the color 'brown' to and as 'life' because of the color of nature as brown, thus, see brown as the nectar of life of which I desire sex with individuals that have a brown skin color that are Indian-oriented -- because I connected Indian (Indigenous to America) to nature because of their 'respect' for nature, thus, connect all other races that resemble the Native American race of which I desire to be (or have sex with) to 'capture' the life-essence of who and what I already am.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that culture in itself depends on energy for it to be created through and as the participation within the mind of that which creates 'duplication' as the very relationships that have been passed on through time of which we as humans have specialized certain skin tones, languages, physical forms, expressions within physical movements, expressions within fabric, etc. as the foundations of color of which we portray as that which defines who we are in relation to this world and reality -- creating the very fabric and foundation of relationships as the illusion that is lived as 'life' -- instead of realizing that life exists as the 'nothingness' of that which is best for all -- that exists as actual freedom from the illusion that has been built as the foundation of freedom as deception in this world and reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect sex to freedom, and to believe that within form, shape, and color, I can find freedom, and that the expression of that freedom is through and within sex with a form, shape, and color that represents relationships that I have energized as the 'life' that gives me satisfaction / fulfillment as a 'personality' of limitation that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become based on the separating myself from self-trust and forming trust within/as form, shape, and color that I defined as 'life' -- instead of realizing that the judgment that I create through and as form, shape, and color -- comes from me judging myself as 'less-than' based on the relationships that I formed with other forms, shapes, and colors within the media that represents the 'highest' culture of which I -- as the personality -- try to 'be and become' so I can 'be and become' the an acceptable form, shape, and color by a larger amount of people as the 'perfected personality'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect culture to and as 'life' -- because I have abdicated myself into and as a 'personality' as a limited particle of and as 'energy' as a diminished form of and as substance because I trusted the expression of and as me as 'energy' consistent of and as thoughts, feelings, emotions, perceptions, ideas, and beliefs that create relationships and duplicate myself so that I don't 'die' as the 'personality' -- instead of standing up for and as who I am as 'life' -- and through transcending the fear of death of which I create relationships to hide, I become 'real' -- as I cannot be 'real' within and through 'energy' and the expounding of relationships that formed the integrity of the " I " -- the " I " of ego that recharges itself with emotions and feelings -- feeding the energy of the " I " of ego as self-interest.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define energy as 'life' -- in conjunction with nature as 'life', and thus connect energy to nature, and create the belief that the more that I establish relationships with others within 'energy' as emotions and feelings -- that this is who I am as a 'natural' being, and thus, is the reason for having sex to duplicate who I am as an 'energy' being (consistent of emotions and feelings) to others so they can 'express' who they are as 'energy' beings consistent of and existing within and as 'relationships' that feed the illusion of separation as the birth of 'energy' of which substance is removed from this world and reality to create the illusion of wholeness within energy through 'sex' with others that have created relationship-patterns within/as this world of which I formed a connection to -- to feed that parts of me that have insufficient 'energy' -- so I can be 'whole' again within and in all parts of me as a life of and as 'energy' of which I suck the life out of my physical body for the sake of surviving as 'energy' within relationships to be and become 'whole' -- instead of realizing that I am not defined by 'wholeness' and 'completeness' within and as 'energy', but am participation within and as the process of 'nothingness' to see/realize/understand that I am the 'nothing' as self-trust that deconstructs all relationship-patterns into 'no-thing' -- as the reality from the illusion as relationships -- that represents who I am as a 'personality' -- of which I can then piece myself back together again -- as what is best for all Life.
I commit myself to the process of the seven-year journey to life -- as a process to see/realize/understand that I am already life, but perceived myself separate from life, and through and within sex, sabotage myself through seeing myself becoming equal to and one with life through sex that I made my purpose of and as living within and as this world. I commit to see/realize/understand that I am the nature of life as life, and that I do not need 'energy' to see this, but have created myself to be and become a product of energy because I accepted and allowed myself to abdicate who I am as life-- for the sake of being and becoming the copy of what has already been here as energy through relationships that I exist within -- as the definition / construct of what I created myself to be.
I commit myself to see/realize/understand that I have become the very relationship-patterns that I exist within/as -- to define who I am in relation to others as pictures, and thus, created myself to be a picture subject to polarity as friction that has become the symbols as energy that I exist within and as as the foundation of who I am as a limited being -- needing relationships to exist and give me life -- instead of realizing that I am already life equal to and one with all that exists 'here'.
I commit myself to see/realize/understand that culture is the integrity of what I have created myself to be as a being that exists of and as relationships that I use to define who I am in relation to my culture, and thus within this, compare myself with other cultures as either being 'more-than', or 'less-than' another -- based on their skin tone, language, physical form, expression within physical movements, expression within fabric, etc. -- limiting myself to a being that only exists within and as symbols as pictures that form the integrity of who I am as 'energy'.