22 April 2012

Day 6 | Reptilian Logic

I was on the airplane today on this day of April 22nd 2012. I was looking out at the window while the plane was getting ready to land. I was attracted to the mechanical operations of how the plane was able to alter its wing formation in a way that it controlled its landing efficiency. I connected it to a bird and how a bird's landing mechanisms were able to be a model used for technological advances in the aviation field.

There were two points that came up wherein I did not direct myself accordingly within this moment of enthusiasm. One of the points was an unconscious movement point of wanting validation from the man that was sitting at the window seat. I was looking out of the window at the aisle seat, but I didn't look out of the window only to see outside. I was looking out of the window to get validation from the person that was sitting near the window because, based on his form, I perceived myself as 'less than' him because I judged my own form and integrity. I saw myself as a child to/towards him, and judged my form as skinny compared to his form. I connected my form to having lack of common-sense because I perceived common sense as 'reptilian logic'. Reptilian logic is the "common sense" of the world -- such as being 'right' or being 'wrong' about something... being 'good' or being 'bad' etc. Because the whole world follows these principles, I wanted to see if these principles of 'reptilian logic' were able to be something that could make actual 'common sense'.

Within this world of 'reptilian logic' has become so profound that it's difficult to actually see what's commonsensical -- because many of us have been brainwashed to believe in reptilian logic as 'common sense'. Thus, authority figures in the world are created to attempt to exercise and maintain 'reptilian logic' -- as what is best for all to be and become, but only on an external level -- such as exercising control within being 'good' or being 'positive' -- because that is believed to be what is 'best for all', but these points are exercised because they have caused some type of friction to exist such as 'war' -- because if the actual commonsensical points are not exercised, it thus creates war, and what is actual common sense is simple. It is to give everyone food, water, and shelter, and it is to give everyone equal amounts of money because everyone is life, and the value of life is within/as each and every one of us, but this has been abused for the propagation of money.

So because of my fear as standing as this common sense within myself, I became adapted within reptilian logic, and attempted to make sense of it. Thus, anyone who exercises an extreme measure of reptilian logic, I allowed myself to fear them, or obey them -- because they have the most power, but yet, can display a 'loving', 'spiritual' nature in which they may seem as if they are 'good Samaritans' and know how to change the world. So I connected the forms of these people to almost everyone else in my world and reality (except children), and see almost everyone as having more knowledge than me and being more practical because I have judged people as having more 'common sense'. I started to connect common sense as 'reptilian logic' because that is what is primarily seen within the world. This is generally why the government, and the law enforcement are feared because they represent 'reptilian logic'. This is what parents teach their children how to become effective 'models' of this current system built upon a precipice of abuse. Thus, this 'reptilian logic' as 'human reasoning' -- is abusive, and I accepted this reasoning as reasonable and viable because I placed myself 'less than' others because of how others judged me as having lack of 'common sense'. But the only  'lack' of common sense that I had is the common sense of the 'system' as what it means to be 'human'. What does it mean to be human? Ask yourself that. To me, being human is knowing how to effectively be a model of the system as how money is constructed within this reality. To be human means to know how to be an effective leader -- to lead others to become slaves of the system within all fields as education, religion, morality and ethics, culture, politics, etc.

The other point that came up wherein I did not direct myself accordingly within the moment of enthusiasm when watching the landing mechanisms of the flight -- is when I was informed to look straight ahead in that moment because the plane was landing. What I didn't understand was that it would be 'best' for the physical body during this moment to have my head straight while the plane was landing because of the instability of the landing which could affect my physical body, and thus implement stress on my neck muscles. I didn't adhere to this point because I didn't even hear everything that was said, and wasn't aware of the common-sense point. Thus, I started reacting instead of investigating the point because I felt that I was being controlled.

So within these two points are variations of control and freedom wherein within the first point, I existed within a desire to 'exist within' and support the integrity of what has been established as 'control' as what is defined as 'common-sense' in this world and reality -- which has become the foundation of our lives as a 'system'. Thus, within this, I sought 'freedom' within wanting to be 'validated' as doing the 'right thing' in order for me to validate my 'personality' of submission to the principles that govern our world and reality.

Within the second point, I existed within anger of not wanting to be 'controlled' which came from my lack of 'awareness' of what was specifically said. Thus, the 'feeling' of control existed because I felt that I was limiting how I wanted to move my body, and not realizing, that how I want to move my body may not be what's best for my body -- which could in-turn cause physical friction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate common sense for reptilian logic's definition of what common sense is within polarity (good/bad, right/wrong, positive/negative) because I didn't stand for actual common sense because not many people were existing within actual common sense as what is 'best for all' within this world. Thus, I abdicated Self for the 'personality' -- to please the personality because I defined myself within 'fear of loss'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within 'fear of loss' -- fear of losing my 'personality/ego' -- as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, and thus support the 'common sense' of the world to 'feel' complete.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am 'incomplete' if I am not able to exist within feelings and emotions as outflows of what it means to be 'good', and be 'right', and be 'positive' -- which I created a 'spirituality' of and proliferate it to the next generation as a point of self-sabotage.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within self-sabotage by supporting the polarity of 'good' and 'bad' within this world because I have given up on myself within 'common sense', thus, abuse common sense within an ego perspective of common sense as a projection of self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within self-sabotage by supporting the polarity of 'right' and 'wrong' within this world because I have given up on myself within 'common sense', thus, abuse common sense within an ego perspective of common sense as a projection of self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within self-sabotage by supporting the polarity of 'positive' and 'negative' within this world because I have given up on myself within 'common sense', thus, abuse common sense within an ego perspective of common sense as a projection of self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that existing within 'reptilian logic' is the plight of self-interest covered with 'feelings' of love that I use to support my ego of self-abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within self-abuse because I have trusted in the ego as me as 'giving up' on what is 'best for all' -- because of observing that no one else was doing what was 'best for all' within my reality, and so trust the ego more because I haven't trusted myself within applying myself effectively to stop the bullshit that I have allowed myself to be and become as 'mind'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within 'doubt' -- doubting what it means/entails to do what is 'best for all' -- and thus, do what is 'best' for the 'ego' within good/bad, right/wrong, positive/negative because I was too afraid to 'challenge' these points.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to need validation from the 'personality' as what to do with myself because I have made the ego 'more than' me through the abdication of common sense for 'logic' and 'reason' behind/as polarity friction (good/bad, right/wrong, positive/negative).

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that needing validation is in-fact abdicating myself for that which is the illusion of thoughts, feelings, and emotions -- as that which I have entrusted as the expression of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare my form, shape, and color to another's form, shape, and color based on the relationships that I created with form, shape, and color to 'mean' something -- or have 'value' to -- because I have positioned myself within a 'less than' position of that which I value as form, shape, and color 'separate' from me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that something can possibly exist 'separate' form me, and thus place value on a specific form, shape, and color to give me the 'personality' that I want to exist in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the man on the airplane who was 'stocky' and had a 5 o'clock shadow beard was 'more than' me because I connected the stockiness, and the beard to -- "having it all together" as a 'personality'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define people that I believe that has money as "having it all together" -- and thus, know everything there is to know about the system, and to make them appear 'more than', and to think that they don't have a 'mind', thus never 'react' -- so sabotage me within my process of stopping my mind by placing myself within a 'less than' position -- and to believe that I have 'get somewhere' to transcend my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect 'time' with 'process' and thus exist in separation from my process of stopping my mind, and abusing 'time' to satisfy the mind as 'ego'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within 'control' and 'freedom', and to believe that I am 'free' when I exist within a system of 'control' because of knowing that this is the "way of life" because everyone else is doing it this way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within anger of not wanting to be 'controlled' which come from lack of 'awareness' of what was specifically said on the airplane. Thus, the 'feeling' of control existed because I felt that I was limiting how I wanted to move my body, and not realizing, that how I want to move my body may not be what's best for my body -- which could in-turn cause physical friction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within an unconscious movement point of wanting validation from the man that was sitting at the window seat in order to get validation from him -- because based on his form, I perceived myself as 'less than' him because I judged my own form and integrity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that world of 'reptilian logic' has become so profound that it's difficult to actually see what's commonsensical instead of realizing that I accepted and allowed myself to exist within this difficulty because I accepted 'reptilian logic' of the ego as me before I even consciously made the statement of it being difficult.

I commit myself to apply self-honest common sense points within my world and reality, and to not sabotage myself within 'reptilian logic' -- placing myself within 'good/bad', 'right/wrong', 'positive/negative' because I believed these to be the motivator of my existence through the fear that I will lose my money through and within the system for applying myself common-sensically, and through the fear that there is a higher force looking down upon me, and that if I do not apply 'reptilian logic' as 'good', 'right', and 'positive, -- that something 'bad' will happen to me.

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