I Am 'Here'

So I was reading this article by Sunette, and that really 'changed' my perspective of who I am 'here' within/as this reality and how I use my mind, as thoughts, feelings and emotions, within/as my 'reality' as who I am within this physical existence. And then I read a blog by Jesus, and the most prominent phrase within the blog was, "Who I Am." I am 'here' and always existed 'here' as who I am. I realized how I was separating myself through/as my experience within this world through variable placements and ideals -- defining myself and creating a relationship with people, places and things such as my home, my beliefs/opinions, and the people that I am commonly engaged with. But once I realized 'Who I Am' as Life 'here', I was able to 'let go' of these relationships wherein I defined myself as -- separating myself from/as who I am 'here'. When I am 'here' I take everything with/as me as who I am. And everything that I take is simply 'me' within the moment as 'breath'. I 'leave' everything behind.... I leave the 'relationship' with everything behind because the 'relationship' with everything that I 'related' to was an illusion. The only thing that was real is 'me'. And I never realized that until now. I kept creating relationships with people, places and things and then creating/forming 'reaction' through/as emotions and feelings because I believed that I was 'leaving' something behind -- such as my apartment. I have formed a relationship with my apartment because it is within my apartment wherein I am able to 'relax' and 'get away' from others, but isn't that the deception? I never realized that one of the reasons that I was angry at work was because I formed a relationship with what I thought I 'left behind' as a 'part' of me. How can I possibly leave a part of me behind when 'all' is me? I never accepted myself 'here' as breath. I never accepted the 'me' that is 'here' in every moment. And when I am 'here' through/as breath, I am 'all' here as who I am. And that is something that I realized when I was reading Sunette's and Jesus's blogs. I am 'all' here. There is no possible way that I can be here and there in two places at once -- only when I accept myself as 'separate' from me 'here' is when I create 'duplicates' of me as relationship-points to a person, place, and/or thing.

I was walking down 'memory lane' the other day where I used to stay. I was 'meeting' my duplicate of me as 'memory', but I realized that I am 'here'. There is no 'experience' that has 'left me behind, or that I leave behind. I AM the 'experience'. I am equal and one as the 'past', present and 'future' as who I am. I am 'here'. When I leave the house in the morning -- there is nothing to be 'left behind' because I am 'here'. I take all that is me with/as who I am because all is me. All of the relationships that I form with people, places and things -- all of those relationships are as who I am 'here' -- not with/as who they are because they are me -- as the 'energetic relationship' that I have formed with/as me that I 'relate' to as a mind-possession. All is me. No one or no thing can never keep a 'part' of me away from me 'here' -- because all is me. When all of my relationships cease to be, I remain 'here' as breath and realize that I still remain. Although I am no longer a kid anymore, I still remain. Although there are people that I miss within my reality, I still remain because I am not subject to relationships. Relationships are only created as a point of 'relationship' to a 'resonant' point within/as memory and structural resonance, but I am not defined by the structural integrity of who I am as a personality because I am 'here' as who I am -- equal and one with/as breath 'here'.

Why come it took me this long to 'see' that? Because I always existed within/as the 'relationships' within the world created by the mind rather than walking and expressing who I am 'here' as breath. When I die, I will not take anything with me, so why am I subject to it? Why do I create emotions and feelings as a point of relationship with them? Why don't I just realize who I am 'here' as all as one and equal to everything that exists as who I am? Isn't that the 'best' relationship? The relationship with/as Self 'here'? Isn't that really the only point that exists.... Self? Isn't that was creates and 'is' every and all relationships.... Self? There is nothing that could exist separate from me but my belief that everything that is 'external' from me (from a physical standpoint) is separate. The things that I view with my physical eyes may deem to be 'separate' from me, but the relationship that I have with them is always 'here' as who I am and is me that creates these relationships and believe these relationships to be separate from me which is the reason for me creating them in the first place -- so I can apparently 'feel' good by having them within my existence. Fascinating....

Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'separate' myself from 'me here', as who I am, by 'defining' me based on where I stay.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am 'separate' from anything that exists 'separate' from who I am within/as the 'physical' instead of realizing that all is me as the 'relationship' that I create/develop as the 'expression' of who/what they are. I am 'equal and one' with all that exists. I am 'here' as the 'manifested relationship' that I have with everything that form a 'relationship-tie' to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'where I stay' is who I am -- instead of realizing that 'where I stay' is simply a physical form of shelter. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form a 'relationship-tie' to where I stay giving the impression that who I am is 'where I stay' -- forming/creating a 'personality' based on 'where I stay'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'separate' myself from 'me here', as who I am, by 'defining' me, and walking a 'personality', based on my relationships -- instead of realizing that I am every relationship that exists of what I accept and allow myself to be/become as a mind-consciousness system, and it is up to me to practically walk 'who I am' as all as one and equal as Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that relationships define who I am instead of realizing that I am the 'relationship' in which I 'relate' to others as 'reflections' of who I am, as a mind-consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'separate' myself from 'me here' by 'defining' me based on who I am as a mind-consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my ideas, beliefs, thoughts, feelings, emotions, memories, etc. that I have about myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'separate' myself from 'me here', as who I am, by 'defining' me based on what is 'right' and what is 'wrong' as 'principles' that man has established as 'morality'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'separate' myself from 'me here', as who I am, by 'defining' me based on 'moral' and 'ethical' standards of/as Life as the system that man has constructed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'separate' myself from 'me here', as who I am, by 'defining' me based on 'morality' and 'ethics'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my 'culture'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my 'religion'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my self-interests.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my habits.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my 'intelligence'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on how much knowledge and information I have accumulated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my how I look as a physical-manifested presentation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my gender identity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my identification cards.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my sexual identity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my height.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on the shape of my nose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on the shape of my ears.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on the shape of my mouth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my teeth

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my thoughts, feelings, and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my fingers.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on the shape of my legs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on the texture of my skin.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on the depth of my voice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on how I smell.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on the size of my ass.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on the color of my skin.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my friends.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on the amount of 'friends' that I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my family.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my position at work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on the type of car that I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on how much money I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my the name that was given to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my personality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my identity that I portray myself as with/as others around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on my structural resonance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'who I am' is based on who I am as a mind-consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that 'who I am' is 'here' -- as all as one and equal to all as Life, and 'here' is where I STAND as who I am.